lots of problems have been bothering me since my return,
really wanna die......today is the worst new year I have ever had....
sleeping difficulty further drives me crazy
pressure, lack of rest, uncertain future, family tension are the issues..
maybe it is partly because my wonderful last year, which is so happy and sadless
and without surprise, this year is comparatively dim
I have tried really hard to make life easier and tried to please everybody, but it is so impossible :(
luckly, I have several good friends and I have fatfat......
their have been really supportive and it does help
thx all
cheers, and happy new year